There are times of darkness and light. Sometimes we have to go through the night of disbelief, cynicism or despair. I'm talking about being in touch with your calling.
When you really hear and own your calling it begins to give you strength. It gives energy beyond what you expect. It makes you see through challenges and obstacles. It feeds on a level that is deeply nourishing.
But there totally are times when it doesn't seem so easy.
There are times when you fall so hard that you cry and are afraid to rise back again. Times when you are tired of everything. Times when you don't feel anything anymore and wonder if this is for you anyway.
But when a calling is there, it doesn’t listen to reason.
Calling is not about what is rationable.
Calling doesn’t come from reasoning how you’d make money. (Even though I do think our calling LEADS us to money)
Calling doesn’t obey rules or norms.
Calling doesn’t ask if you feel comfortable with it.
Calling feels expansive, elevating and it lightens your being.
Calling makes you feel vulnerably connected to your emotions.
Calling fills you with hope and love.
Calling may seem logically crazy but you just know inside that it is possible.
Calling is not about what others would like to see you do or become.
Calling is totally unique to you.
Calling burns you.
Calling makes you feel ALIVE.
When we let our calling shrink inside we become dead inside. It is a state of suffocation. It totally often is scary to embrace our calling, yet at the same time it just feels really good. You feel excited with tingling energy. It might feel like you can finally breathe when you feel what calls you. It's our job to give ourself permission...
I have had many times when I thought I will quit music. Times when I somehow thought I've seen what this is and it just doesn't fit me anymore. I have struggled with what you could call "musical career identity", somehow stuck in old frames and mindsets. I have found myself watching ways of working and going "I don't want that". I've felt these tiny crawling voices of cynicism and doubt creep up my back. That I am not good enough to do this. That my voice doesn't matter to anyone.
Calling keeps on knocking.
It keeps on nagging in the back of your, uh, heart, mind, body, everything.
Those moments of hope can come in such small details. There is one moment I remember from an early time when I was taking piano lessons at age of 16, having mostly been learning to play by myself. I was studying in high school at that time, feeling very lost and disconnected to life and myself. I didn't even get to have many lessons, but this one moment had a significant effect on me.
I played one song I had as homework for her, and as I stopped my teacher was commenting my playing and then said to me: "Have you thought about studying more music? I think you should."
That may seem really like a small thing, but at that time there weren't many adults who'd encourage me in who I really was. I felt like I was weighted with adult's opinions, what they wanted for me, what they thought was rational to do in life. I wasn't so confident in my own. But I became more confident, and that moment was crucial for it.
It wasn't long after that when I quit high school (after one year) and went to study music professionally. And the journey goes on. That was a moment when I made a choice that was based on my calling, not opinions from the outside perspective. You need that skill to make choices that base on your calling.
Have my dreams and goals changed during years? Yes, they totally have. I might not dream of exactly same things that I did ten years ago in my artistic career. I have found and learnt so much that I have evidentially evolved in this time. The music industry is changing. I have re-defined what success means to me anyway. But the core of it is the same - to sing and make music. I view Voice as a bigger part of me. There is no asking if I should sing or not. If I don't sing, I shrink and lose my colors. Sometimes I have to work to get myself to use my voice, but when I do, I feel alive again.
I've had to really learn to surrender to what calls me. And each time it pushes me to go beyond my fears. Because it always does trigger fears and doubts. Our calling is showing us where to go so we can grow into who we dream of being.
My voice is my calling. I know that I am not the same without it. Sometimes I am afraid to say that. Who am I to say that my voice is my calling? Who am I to say my voice can match up to that? What does it matter to anyone?
But I know because it feels like it. Sometimes I have to go through gigantous mental resistance before singing, but once I get to the real thing, I realize the power of it. Everything falls into place. It matters to me. Singing is transformational experience to me. There doesn't have to be someone always telling me anymore I should be doing it, but in my experience there are magical, crazy synchronistic events in life where some people just came, say a few words and that changes the course of your life (because you were changing it anyways inside but not just given permission for yourself to do that!!!)
What is calling you? If you could give yourself permission for anything? What keeps on haunting you, wanting you, in the silent moments of life? What feels bigger than life to you?
It is real work, to go for it, but because you have the passion for it you have the inner willingness to go for it.
I used to have some very self-destructive manners growing into my artistry. One way I have been self-sabotaging my own artistry is
destroying my music/art/work of creations.
Now, I think there are always cycles we go through, questioning our relationship to why we do what we do. This still doesn't have turn out into poisonous self-sabotage. I have thrown drawings to bin, left them outside to rot (that's real abandonment :D), deleted musical projects from my computer etc.
It makes me a little sad to think that I have actually destroyed some pieces I made that I just was unsure of. There's lots of musical ideas, drawings, writings that I have thrown to the bin because I got somehow really ashamed of them. They weren't good enough, I couldn't approve them, I thought they were just shit. There were moments when I would be so mixed and confused inside, feeling even self-hate and loathing, that I just couldn't bear being with my art. I couldn't perceive it from a loving perspective.
Later on, when the mixed feelings associated with creative birthing (which actually can be silenced and changed when the process is well-balanced) calmed down, after YEARS even, I would now be really happy to go back to those works. There were many ideas I would be able to develop now.
What ever you're working on now and it doesn't seem to go as you'd like - does not mean that you wouldn't be able to execute it later on when time travels.
There is a certain aspect to art and creativity where we have to be humble and respectful to the rhythm of creation. Some things cook for a longer time. Our job is to learn to take care of the cycle so that we can collect the fruits when they are ripe. Forcing only destroys the gentle dynamics of creative expression and flow.
A few things you CAN do in those moments of wanting to rip everything apart:
1. Become an observer.
When there is an art piece that doesn't feel good enough, detach your personality and sense of self from it by looking it from an outside opinion. Ask yourself, what are the things that work here? What doesn't? If I really listen to myself, can I notice what made this feel like a "failure" to me? Can I take the good ideas in here and develop them further? What does this piece evoke in me?
2. Observe your emotions
What are the emotions that your work unleashes in you? Start breathing into them and ask what do they have to tell you. Our art actually carries messages from our deep knowing. Usually wanting to destroy our art is lack of self-worthiness and love. What ever you feel is totally allowed. When you begin to listen to those emotions you automatically start taking care of yourself. The next question from there on would be "what do I need to feel worthy and loved?".
3. Archive your works
Highly recommended. Just archive your s*it somewhere so that your future self can have good time looking at it. If nothing else, you can see the journey you make, which is really important for us to actually track our progress. Even if you don't know NOW what to do with what you created, you really might know in some months or years. Believe me, I say this with personal experience.
4. Let go of expectations
Wow, this is huge one. Actually our deeply laid expectations make a big impact on feeling not-good-enough with our creations. We maybe expect it to look/sound/feel/taste/whatever similar to this or that artist, a teacher, a colleague, a piece you made in your past, list goes on. The expectations we make is the source of deep unhappiness and unsatisfaction. It is a paradox. When we stop waiting for certain outcomes and the process to go in a certain way, it starts to work in genius ways. So, let go of expectations, both your own and others.
5. Notice what you did well and move on
Just state out loud all the things you did great. Maybe you used colors well or your technique was great. Maybe you realized something about yourself. Maybe you received new ideas. And then - move on. Stop pushing or trying. If you need to take a break and distance yourself, then do it. If you need to work on something else, do it. If you need to cry, do it. Maybe you want to take another go. Let the answer reveal itself to you.
I don’t make art to become an artist of the norm.
If you know me, you might know that I choose to engage in many forms of art from music, dance, burlesque to visual arts, to say a few. Having a multi-talent and a huge interest to life and art has been a challenge in our society which usually respects having only one thing you master and become perfect in that. I’ve had to work my way through questioning beliefs about playing around between many art forms. Should I just focus on something? Why paint if I never became a masterfully skilled painter?
But the thing is – I don’t make art for perfection.
I don’t believe art is about perfection.
Art is about mastering your own, unique expression.
I believe art is to be an expression of the soul’s passion and true origin. I want to experience, I want to feel, to pulse and be alive.
It is a journey and an eco-system. We evolve and go through things. We learn and change all the time.
I make art so that I can make my inner life real. I paint so that I can make visible what I feel, imagine and pulse for. I dance so that my body expresses the shapes that my spirit loves. I sing so that I can hear my true voice and step into my greatness.
I make art because it gives me pleasure. I practice many different things because it gives me pleasure to be able to express myself broadly. Artists must keep their fire always burning. We must make mistakes, feel alive, afraid, nervous to ignite something that burns, excites, tingles our nerves.
It is freakin' dangerous, RAW, unsafe and a wild ride.
Art guides me to become who I really am. It guides me to step into my big, iconic self. It screams to me if I start to fuck around trying to be perfect. And it is really vulnerable to open yourself fully out there. To show your inner world. Sometimes I feel ashamed, afraid, and when I walk through that I embody a new level of my expression and then it's just pure pleasure to be there. The agony and pleasure really are lovers that are both as needed to make our expression whole.
I used to play a videogame called Final Fantasy as a teenager and I would cry when the game came to an end. I would cry because I wanted to be in that world. I have always cried when my favorite fantasy games or scifi-movies end because it speaks to my soul.
Through being creative artist I am creating the environment I want to live in. Creating my own cellular structure and healing. It is not fixing, it is becoming whole.
Truly masterful art comes from practice, practice, practice combined with passion, soul and honesty. It is the fiery passion combined with our edges, flaws and mistakes. It is our vulnerable human selves exposed, lifting the veil.
Please don't try to overly intellectualize your voice.
Please don't assume your voice to be the same it was yesterday.
Please don't cage your voice with expectations of what it was before.
Please don't cage your voice.
Voice is a force of nature.
Voice is forever in motion, in flux, in change.
Voice is WILD, FREE in it's nature.
YOU are a part of nature. YOU, your cells, your being, is constant change and evolution.
Your voice changes and evolves all the time.
I know there are many techniques and ways to make your voice sound or be something you are wanting to express. The problem is that if you begin to expect you can control your voice like it would be a machine or an object - it is not. Your voice is affected by everything - the moods you have, are you inspired or sad, tired or excited, your dreams, your traumas. It is affected by your spirit, by your energy.
The shades your voice REALLY wants to express come from your present state of being - not a rigid, overly idolized images of how your voice should sound like. Your voice wants to express from spirit, from truth, from presence.
Can you approach every conversation you have with a new awareness?
Can you pay curious attention to your voice next to you open your mouth without criticism or judgement?
Can you feel HOW you want to sing the song today?
Can you let go of how it felt yesterday?
Can you allow your voice to be what it is NOW, in this moment?
Can you allow your voice to change?
Can you allow what comes through your voice and see how that is the best that can be in the present moment?
My voice has gone through a lot of changes throughout time. And though there is evolving and development, really no moment is better than the other. Every moment is as valuable if I just give it the value by being here, being in the now. The point is in feeling the voice, feeling my words, feeling the songs, feeling the resonance.
And that is how your voice transforms. It is not by trying to mold it into something, but surrendering into what is. If there is a craving for real transformation, there needs to be willingness to let go of control and allow yourself to step into the unknown.
This moment can give you all you need right now to move forward. In this moment lies the greatness of your voice, but you have to understand that your intellectual mind might not know the answer how to get there. You must trust your body, trust your intuition, trust your spirit, your senses, and leave all of your previous experiences behind you.
You have to step into the new, time and time again. And that will FREE your voice!
I've always thought that working with the voice is a spiritual practice. Definitely anyone who is a performer or artist has met the nature of inner work in form of different challenges, fears, beliefs in some way. Doing the inner work doesn't only grow you as a being, but it makes you a better singer and performer. Here are of few of the highlights of spiritual insights from the year 2016!
1. SING LESS, SURRENDER MORE
Letting go of the idea of singing is a big key to singing more authentically. To clarify what I mean by this, is that often when we are "supposed" to sing we start doing all kinds of things. Things that we think means singing. We stick unconsiously to our unhealthy habits like safety anchors. This is more like doing instead of being.
The more you surrender and let go of trying to sing nicely, more real your voice becomes.
We sometimes think that we are doing a strong interpretation by pushing, forcing and trying to make our voice be something else. It isn't only a message to yourself that you're voice is not enough, it stays on a really shallow level of feeling and presence. It's like you're running through the song or a speech without sensing what's happening.
This could come out as a singer using their voice very loudly all the time, the loss of dynamics, depending excessively on high notes, doing excess amount of maners or effects without it feeling natural. These can all be ways to "hide" the fear of surrendering to what could happen if we just let go or stripped down all the doing.
The difference is awareness.
With awareness you're able to let go of all the ways you did it before, all the ways it should be done, all the ways you think that are wrong, all the habitual ways. There is a possibility to come into this moment and sense with a fresh perspective. Once you practice more awareness of your mind and body, you start to notice the difference in yourself. When you're more aware, it is more pleasurable to sing, more effortless and moving. It is also scary because you can't control it in the same way.
2. YOUR DREAMS ARE NOT ALWAYS WHAT YOU THINK THEY ARE
Why I write about this is that I've noticed that human has a tendency to create dreams that come from ideas of what we've seen others do, rather than create our own dreams. You must have sometimes experienced your dream coming true and realizing that you don't even enjoy it at all. Then why are you so disappointed if it was your dream?
Sometimes artists think they have to go a certain path to be successful, so they end up creating dreams based on this image, just to realize at some point that it doesn't really even fulfil them. Let me tell you - it doesn't have to be the same way someone else did it. You can create your own unique way of using your gifts.
When we are building our personal dreams it is most valuable to recognize what is the core essence of what we REALLY want to experience and feel. The more clarity there is on this, the more clearly we resonate what we want into the universe. The thing is that this often also takes time.
You need to know how you want to FEEL in your dream manifestation. What are the core values that build up your dream? How do you want to connect with people? How do you want to feel by the end of the day? What kind of things do you really enjoy doing? And all of these without the frames of those ideas we have.
3. HONOR YOUR JOY
Joy is our spiritual guide. Our joy tells us what nourishes us, what we need, what we like. It tunes us into higher frequencies and creates flow, excitement and passion. When you find your joy, you find the space of timelessness.
What I learned is that sometimes we overlook our joy as something useless. It can be something like buying green balloons, which might seem a little irrational to our mind.
Our joy doesn't always create linear results in the way the goal-orientated mind is used to. Instead it is like a part of a treasure map that leads you in a mysterious way toward the dream of your heart.
If it brings you joy to go out and jump on the trampoline, then do it. When you hear your heart jump out of joy, listen to it and honor what it has to say. Even though it might seem like a waste of time, it is leading you towards your spirit and your true self. The same goes with our voice. If there are certain songs that spark your joy, sing them, even if no one around you appreciates them. If you like to listen to certain bands, listen to them. If you like to make jokes, make jokes. If you'd like to explore strange areas of your voice, explore them.
There is always more to explore. To get to know our voice, we need to get to know ourselves, our blind spots, our shadows and beliefs. It's a journey of laughter and tears, pain and pleasure. It is more than just technique. Let yourself go there and discover.
Defining success uniquely is one of the most important things to do as someone in the field of creative arts and performance. What we all come with into this world of art is a setup of expectations, stereotypes, myths and pre-written stories. We have seen artists in glory and fame, we have seen artists in failure and starvation.
Often times there are certain things we connect to being successful as a singer and an artist, like getting a record deal or performing at huge stadion to millions of people.
Those can be wonderful things, but we need to have sort of inner success in order to enjoy any kind of outer success we meet in the world. We can get things that seem wonderful, but if we are not grounded in our own values, it can tear as apart.
I've had to define what success means to me as a singer. First of all, for my sanity, and for having honest clarity in my purpose. There needs to be a strong connection to knowing why I sing in the first place - not to please others, but being true to myself.
1. Singing feels easy, enjoyable and effortless in practice, on stage and after
This is a big compass of success to me. It's like the "3 SACRED E'S" of singing. Easy, enjoyable, effortless. If I feel like I'm pushing, straining or trying to work super hard to make something happen, it doesn't really feel effortless. I know I am successful when I feel open, warm and energized after practice or performance. Of course sometimes it can result also as a relaxed feeling of being tired, if that is what my body-mind is needing.
What isn't success to me is feeling like I lost my voice, tension in my mind and body, feelings of hoarseness or even pain my throat. The tension does go both way. If I feel like shit about my performance, then I have probably compromised my truth and made decisions that I don't align with. And that affects the body too. It's a path of learning to be merciful to yourself, your voice and your path. It's about the whole, not of two mistakes you did.
2. I follow my own true interests
I think that any of the successful artists, songwriters and bands in the world have followed this path. Being true to yourself is something that shows. It shows as drive, enthusiasm and passion. It is also a way to make sure you don't burn yourself out by compromising yourself. When you follow your joy, and what it is in every moment, you stay motivated.
In my earlier days as a singer I used to be afraid of losing my interest in music and singing. What I have now realized that it is just the ability to listen to yourself and what brings you joy in the moment. Sometimes it can be to not sing. Sometimes it can be to listen to music. Sometimes it can be making improvised songs all the time. I allow my interests to enter my world of singing. I sing what ever gives me joy, even if it seems a little bit out of the curve.
3. My voice is part of my everyday life
So, what I mean by this is that there are so many great things you can achieve with your voice, but if it always stays in hiding it really doesn't become alive. It is part of the journey to allow the expression to be with you all the time. It's about being open, being less concerned about perfection. It's not sexy to be worried about your voice all the time. Why should singing be meant only for the stage?
What I really love are spontaneous, improvised songs. That can be really silly, stupid and fun. They are songs that are made in a car, in the kitchen or ... in the bedroom. And it really is not only about singing, it's about having an open channel of expression, as someone who expresses verbally and with sound. I think it's fairly successful to feel like I can open my mouth and speak my truth in any situation, or have the courage to stand out with what I say.
4. I use my voice diversely
I believe that a human voice has infinite possibilities in having different sounds and shades. It's like an endless palette of colors. What is successful to me is that I am using my voice diversely and exploring new things in my voice all the time as I go. We can become very strong and good in certain things, but ultimately success to me is going into the areas that are not so familiar.
It is also about entering the realm of surrender and feeling. The voice becomes more diverse when we surrender to the moment and express what we truly feel. That is when interesting things start to happen and we are not trying to control them. They are like little micro-shades in the voice. Just listen to someone with a good speaking voice telling a story - their sound might be working at a seemingly similar area, but their voice produces tiny little things that make their expression become alive. It is not about doing, it's about being.
5. I sing with my own voice
This might be the most important one. Best to last.
Well, what I can just say about this is that we are currently living in a time where people mostly learn to sing by imitating others or we get some techniques to sound just like some great singer. We are trying to sound just the same as some famous singer, which is kinda troublesome. It can lead to voice problems and tensions, but it also knocks you off your center. Imitation can be one way of learning, but the thing is that we can learn from great singers and how they sing, but the point is not to sound similar to them. Or even do it in the same way they did. We need to let go of trying to be like someone else and just kinda surrender to our own voice.
This is a huge topic in itself. Developing a good voice means that you have to know your own voice well. You need to know your body, your mind, your feelings, your interests. To create masterful art we can never go down the copy-road. We have to go down the deep-inside-yourself-rabbit-hole.
We need to get down to the core of what inspires ourselves. We need to tap into our own vulnerability and express our own authentic selves. There is no other way.
The thing is, that by learning great technique and sing like other famous singers you can seem like a really great singer. There are singers like this out there. But the problem is that you need to know who you are. You need to trust that. You need to stay true to that. By being only a technically good singer you always stay on a superficial level. It doesn't go that deep into the listener - or history.
But being yourself, authentically you, in what ever stage you are with your voice, you can make great impact in the world. No matter if you sing just to yourself or thousands of people, or if you are wanting to make a difference with the words you let of your mouth. And really that is just way much more interesting.
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This is part of a series of articles that dig behind the symbolism and the story in my pieces of art. They are not ultimate truths, but more of guideposts to open up the communication between you, me and the art.
This is the sword of truth, the eye of justice.
It indicates the power we all have inside us - the laser-sharp sword of intuition and inner built mechanism of truth and honesty. It guides us to a life of potent dignity and pride, stemming from the value of truth for our spirits.
So what does this really mean then? We all have this ability to know the truth and make the right decisions, but often most we do not. And mostly we sure hell have no idea what is the truth for us. It can seem like everything is hidden behind a thick fog.
1. Choosing to be blind to the truth
This is where we cover our vision for truth. It is when we choose not to see. The reasons can be many - the fear to face the pain, fear to face the fears, a shame of our circumstances, shame of ourselves, fear of facing the reality, fear of change. Facing the truth requires us to stand up to our true power. It requires us to stand up in dignity and act in the manner of pride and honesty. It can mean going through uncomfortable feelings, conflicts and fears.
When we live our lives with our blindfolds on, we compromise our truth, we compromise our spirit. It can feel like your life is in a constant misalignment and unbalance - where no matter what you do to try to "fix things" everything stays the same. It is when a difficult situation, drama or theme keeps on revolving over on over in your life. It's like being in a loop that never ends, and you have no way out.
Sometimes we choose not to see, because something hurt us in the past and we were not able to fully digest the experience. It maybe happened when we felt unsafe and insecure. It is a way to protect ourselves, a defense mechanism. In some situations it might be useful for our systems to have this shield of protection, but if it stays on it starts to grow in it's size. It is our blind spot - things we keep on doing over and over without realizing it's full consequences. And even when we might logically know it is not good for us, we still can't stop ourselves from doing it - without knowing why. That is where we sabotage ourselves.
Even though the warrior in the picture is blindfolded, it doesn't mean she is blind. It tells about two things - the blind spot and also the ability to see with the body.
2. The body is an intuitive antenna
I sometimes have thought that my body is like my third eye. I literally feel like I can see and sense things with my body, without my physical eyes. This is what it means that we don't need our eyes to see. Our whole body is an intuitive eye - the more that we tune into our bodies and learn to be present for it, the more we can receive messages from it. And it is telling them all the time. It is like a constant feedback machine - what ever you do, your body reacts to it.
Food and eating is a really simple example of this. When ever you eat something, your body feels something afterwards. Do you feel groggy, tired, bloated, or energetic and purring after a meal? Those are all messages of intuitive honesty from your body. How about social interactions - what does your body feel in different social situations? How do you feel among the people you work with, live with, spend time with? Do you feel drained, afraid, confused, tight, tense, or supported, warm, peaceful?
It is a constant communication that happens between you and your spirit. Your body is like an antenna that messages you all the time, so you can act on ways that align with it's true needs. It is not a black and white story of "good and bad", it is a dance of life, dance of decisions and actions. Do your actions align with your truth? When we ignore the messages of our intuition and body things start to gear out of balance.
3. Intuition cuts through the veil of disguise
It is a decision to deny ourselves from seeing the truth. We disguise ourselves from what really is surrounding us. It is a way of not having to face the world. Or your problems. Or difficult situations, difficult people. We think that it is safe to us. But here we actually harm our inner ability of judgement and decision making. We start to avoid the things that make us feel difficult - we go around it like a cat avoids water. This feels like living in constant low pressure area, where you're waiting for the storm to arise.
4. It is often closer than you think
When talking about a blind spot, we don't usually have to search very far. We are most often blinded to the things that are most near to us. We choose not to see the very things in front of our eyes. It is like our eyes becoming lazy - where we kind of look around but we don't really see.
My grandmother used to say "Look with your eyes, not with holes" if I was searching for something and didn't find it. Altho then it felt a bit annoying, there actually is great depth of truth in it. This tells about the very thing that happens when we just switch "automate gear" on in our lives, where we push on without really even realizing what is happening.
What happens when start to use our sword of intuition, the eye of truth, is that we become aware of what is really happening in our lives. We start to see things for what they really are, not what we try to disguise them to. We accept the truth for what it is. We allow ourselves to see the truth. And seeing the truth is all about receiving. We receive what is real, we are not trying to make it into something, do some sort of hoax to avoid the discomfort.
It takes up a little bit of your courage. It does ask you step into your full upright posture. It calls for your pride, it calls for your dignity. But the reward is great, it is priceless. We start to live with more intention and awareness, with more respect towards ourselves and the worlds. We stop sabotaging ourselves. We start to carry mindful responsibility of our actions. We learn to accept, love and embrace.
Affirmations for this artwork:
I am ready to see the truth behind the fog.
I cut through the veil of disguise with my sword of truth.
I can sense the truth with my skin.
I know what is true to me.
My body knows the truth.
My sword of justice is sharp and accurate.
I start to see more and more every minute.
How does this speak to your spirit? Did you receive some thoughts related to this artwork or article? Let me know in the comments! I'd love to hear your insights.
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Follow me behind the scenes to how I use intuition in the creation of the photoshoot
"Fearless" for Mogul Muse Magazine:
The music in the video is composed and written by Rosa Latva (more in this link)
These basic ideas can be used in any creative process that you go into. I have created a worksheet, aimed for creating a photoshoot, but you can use it in any of your creative process or just to tune up your intuitive game. You can receive the worksheet by entering your e-mail below!
1. Get to know your intuition
First you need to know how your intuition appears in your life and what it means to you. We might need to let go of some ideas about how our intuition should appear like, and see how it looks for ourselves. Maybe you don't receive things through "seeing", maybe it is more of an intuitive hearing or feeling that works for you.
2. Work that intuitive muscle
The more you give attention for your intuition, the more it strengthens. Practice makes masters. When you allow yourself to start listening and trusting those tiny nudges, it is more easy to notice your intuition. Notice what happens in your body when you are making decisions. Is your body responding in the same way as your words? Cultivating body awareness is a powerful way to uptune your intuition. It will be a valuable asset for you in all parts of the creative process.
3. Follow your creative desires
It could be called the Sherlock Holmes-game: I think it's like following intuitive leads that unravel the mystery. Give yourself permission to go where you desire to. Give yourself permission to enjoy you creativity.
4. Create a physical container
We need to pull our ideas into physicality to make them real. Once you have ideas and vision you can create intention for your work, and most importantly plan it out. Be respectful for your self - you wouldn't miss a meeting with someone else, so why would you leave your creative self hanging?
At this point fears, resistance and doubts usually arise. Don't let yourself be weighed down by them - they are a natural part of a creative evolutionary process. I believe they surface because they are ready to be transformed into something new. Remind yourself of why you wanted to do this in the first place, why this excites you.
5. The Leap Express
This is the part where we need to jump and let go. We have ideas, but we need to let them unravel in their own way. I like to clean my mind before I go in front of the camera. You might want to do something that relaxes you - jump, do something silly, shake, make funny noises and let go of any unneeded ideas of what you should look like. This is your moment to have fun and enjoy! The camera sees what you are feeling.
A one last tip on viewing the images:
It can feel sometimes a little awkward to see our selves in images. We can be very critical to ourselves. The camera seizes tiny little moments in ways that we get to see ourselves in new angles. Remember to be curious, inspective, a student of your own body and expression. Give love to all parts of yourself. There is no human on earth that doesn't look sometimes silly in a picture. Learn to receive the whole spectrum of yourself. It can be very good to view the images with someone you trust, who can give you another perspective, if you start to feel overly critical.
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This summer I was asked by Thalia, the editor in chief of Mogul Muse Magazine, to guest contribute in the next serial, with the theme "Fearless". Been following the magazine for a while my instant feeling was an excited "YES!". I felt I was in for a journey, a new journey. We went on creating new images for the serial, at the same time exploring my expression in new levels.
I think we always face up new fears when we enter new levels of expression and evolution. It is part of the game. Especially when working as an artist, performer and creative spirit there are some common fears that usually come, at least for me. Fears of not being good enough, beautiful enough, fear of being ridiculous, stupid, fear of failure, of imperfection.
It can be like glue on your face - hard to get it off. I sometimes got really washed away by it. The anticipation of exposure triggers deep parts of vulnerability.
When ever we choose to live a life of extraordinary, uniqueness and passion, we go through fear. Actually - that is often the thing that thinly separates us from living life to the fullest. But what really happens if we choose to step through? Are the fears really going to destroy us? And if they destroy, what do they destroy in the end? So what if someone doesn't like it? So what if I do something stupid? I think THAT is the moment we start to create our lives, create our dreams. We solidify our commitment.
Every moment is the right one to begin living a life that stands up for our dreams. A life that goes beyond the box. A life that is full of color, life and vividness. Which seems worse - walking through the fears and dissolving them, or letting them play the game and regret it later on?
I invite you to explore the new serial of Mogul Muse Magazine, Fearless, and be inspired! The download is available at their website.
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Maiden of the castle is an audible story that features in my Uni-album. I firmly believe that all the art we birth through ourselves are communicating to us on a spirit level. I have often felt like I have been "channeling my future" in my creations. Stories have the power to carry ageless metaphors and symbols coded inside them.
Maiden of the castle represents the journey of transformation.
Everything begins in the castle.
The castle represents our safety zone.
It is what we know to be true. It is what we already created. It is familiar to us. That is where the transformation begins. The maiden experiences the yearning, a calling, for something she doesn't even know how to describe. That is her spirit longing for transformation. It shows up as anxiety, unsatisfaction to what is, feeling like something is missing. The inner conflict has begun.
In her dreams she sees colorful visions - her spirit communicating to her of her dreams.
Our spirit can take us far and off - it can fly us to another land. The maiden sees adventures and thrilling locations in her dreams, where she has embodied her transformation. But once she wakes up, she forgets them. That is when we don't allow ourselves to go there. That is when we choose to stay numb, choose to not look more deeply. We choose to be blind to what is calling for us. Yet - the inner conflict stays, the anxiety remains. This is the paradoxical story that can happen in our lives - we are more asleep in our daily life than in our dreamtime. When the busy mind gets a chance to stop, a deeper voice whispers to us in hope of getting heard.
The star emerges in the sky one night, this is the Spirit's Desire.
Encouraged by the star, the maiden climbs out of the tower. She enters into the unknown with the momentum of her courage. The desire gives her strength to move out of her comfort zone. She climbs out of the tower and enters the forest, the unknown. Often there is something that pushes us out of the comfort zone - it might be pleasant or not. We might get all excited in one moment and decide to take the leap. Or then something comes and forces us out of the window.
The forest represents our inner world in the unknown. When we enter the unknown, our inner world reveals itself. At first, the forest is a dark, scary place. This dark part of the forest is the challenge we meet in the journey of transformation. Challenges arise because they are parts of us that are ready to transform.
The maiden doesn't know where she is going, is overwhelmed by her fears, yet she can't go back either. At first, her solution is to run. But as she jumps into the bush, she enters a space of silence, of presence. How do we deal with the challenges that arise?
In that moment of silence, she hears her inner voice. This is where deeper listening happens, where she learns to hear the sound of her essence and follow it. Connected with her inner voice, the maiden follows it's guidance into the forest. At this point we allow ourselves to see the challenge without running away or denying it. That is where solutions can arise.
As she is following the voice of her spirit, the forest changes. That is what happens when we align to our decisions, when we have committed whole-heartedly to our path - the world synchronizes with us. It is when we start receiving help in magical ways, signs enter our path and things flow in a miraculous momentum.
The maiden keeps walking into the heart of the forest. There she comes to the pond, the lake, which is our core self, a deeper layer of ourselves. We are all ultimately longing to journey deeper into what we really are.
When the maiden sees her reflection on the pond, she sees herself after the transformation, with new eyes. When we walk through the journey of transformation we always go deeper into ourselves and as a result we become more of ourselves on the outside too.
The tears, transforming into pearls on the surface of the pond, are ultimately a symbol of transformation - also indicating the power of our emotions. When we allow our emotions to move through freely, they communicate with our deeper self and they truly transform into healing energy.
"Maiden of the castle" is audible and available for purchase in this link at Bandcamp.
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